How do you illustrate your
Spiritual Path? I like the understanding that came from reading Deepak
Chopra's The Way to Know God. He helped me see the many leaps
of faith I've made to come to this place on my journey.
I'd been reared as a good
Presbyterian by my parents where my father's family came with a long
Presbyterian culture -- one of our ancestors was hanged and beheaded in
Scotland for his religious beliefs. Being the independent soul that I am, I had a
choice of attending a local Presbyterian college or a Lutheran one.
To hear a different point of view, I chose Thiel College, the Lutheran one -- I had no clue I was going to
a more conservative institution.
I studied religion as a
course requirement, but my involvement in church ended after my marriage
to my first husband, who'd also had parents active in the Presbyterian
church. My mother and his father were organists at their churches.
My one attempt to attend
church in Cleveland found me at the large Presbyterian church in downtown
Cleveland, where to my despair, absolutely no one said a word to me.
Just a short time later, I
moved to Chicago to share an apartment with my sister Pam. She
become active at St Pauls United Church of
Christ in Lincoln Park. We both joined as members in April 1978.
I participated actively at
St Pauls, attending the services and all the programs for adults.
I more than made up for my four years of non-attendance during my
marriage. I enjoyed the open and affirming beliefs of St Pauls --
all were welcomed with open arms.
I started to investigate
alternate viewpoints. I'd done extensive reading about Edgar Cayce
during high school and I bought a bunch of books by Seth and the Prophets.
I found the channeled material began to open my eyes to a different
reality.
After I met Mary, a friend
of a friend, we started to attend classes/gatherings at Healing Earth
Resources, a new age store. I attended an in-person channeling where
I was told I was to do "healing and writing." I promptly forgot that
message (I'd written it in my planner). I learned how to interpret
dreams and I discovered numerology.
I started to do charts for everyone around me. I wanted to understand why I came
into this life with an identical twin with all my challenges, particularly
my strange sounding voice for the first eighteen years of my life.
My first inward journey
came when I went to my first Insight seminar, titled "The Awakening
Heart", in November 1987. It came through my Shaklee upline -- Pam
was my supervisor in the business and her upline had recommended this
weekend event.
I went through the long
days with no expectations. I felt no change when I returned to my
"real" world. But several friends, Mary being one of them, remarked,
"You're softer, more gentler."
I attended Insight II, "The
Opening Heart," in October 1988 where a much smaller group bonded deeply.
I birthed an affirmation, "I am a calm, serene, vulnerable woman who is
loving and lovable."
The following year I went
with my friend Susan to "The Centering Heart" where we spent much time in
meditation and silence.
I continued to attend
church, being active as the chair of a committee, and attending adult
forums, but I also investigate other avenues of Spirit. I read a
lot.
I recently reread several
of Deepak Chopra's books and found their message to be in line with where
I've come to be.
I'd started studying A
Course in Miracles on my own, but found the effort too daunting.
When I arrived in Palm
Springs, I attended a study group several times as a guest as I joined a
group just starting up. Jeffrey and Johnny from the first group
eventually started a group from those attending Unity Church of Palm
Springs. Through this group, I've come to understand the non-dualism.